Hi there readers!
I know I promised to be more active and post more often but I've just been busy (and sore!)
I haven't been called yet to see the new doctor about my digestive problems. The doctor's office is apparently quite behind due to some issues, but that's alright. I'm patient.. And not all that gung-ho about having a camera shoved up my arse anyways hahahaha!
So, update since I last posted: I was exercising daily and weight-training about 3 days a week until I injured my back. I started having sciatic pain a week after going to the gym to do a short leg routine. I only did a little, and maybe worked out for about a half hour before calling it quits because I didn't want to "overdo" it. However, I've also had a very stressful two weeks and I'll tell you why.
My stepdad Bill was hospitalized because he had clogged arteries in his heart. It was so bad that he had to stay in the hospital undergoing a series of tests to see if he was strong enough to have surgery. After being in hospital for about a week, having a blood transfusion, ECG, ultrasounds and x-rays, they did a quadruple bypass surgery. He's now home, after spending two weeks at Vancouver General Hospital recovering from his surgery. I was very worried about him the whole time he was in there. Due to my work schedule, I was only able to visit him once. After injuring myself, I wasn't able to bike over to the house to visit, so I have yet to see him.
I've been having pretty bad pain for the past week or so, mostly in my back. It hurts to use the bathroom, and it's very difficult to sit at my desk at work. Last week I only worked 2 days because of the pain. I haven't brought this up to my doctor because A: The office was closed when I called and B: I don't think he can help me anymore. Right now it's just chronic pain. My only option other than waiting for the colonoscopy to check for IBD is another laparoscopy. I'm really not ready to go under the knife again. I do feel though, that my endo has returned. I have the same symptoms as I did before my first surgery, except they are worse. My "good" days" are becoming more rare, and days where I struggle to get out of bed are a regular occurance. I'm trying really hard not to let it get me down mentally. I'm trying really hard to live as normally as I can and stay positive. It's not easy.
I really feel as if my only option right now is to "get used to the pain" and learn to "deal with it." I don't want to get used to suffering every day. I want to be like any other 26 year old. I guess I'm going through a rough patch right now. I spent all of April in agony, then had one good month, and now I'm in pain again. It doesn't seem fair. I try to think that this is happening for a reason. I'm not sure what that reason is yet though..
Monday, June 11, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
The Dreaded Season
Good afternoon my super beautiful people!
Allergy season is officially here! That's basically May and June.. Two months of being a phlegm factory, sniveling, snotty, nose-blowing foghorn human being. The thing that plagues me the most: The Forbidden Cottonwood Tree. Fluffy miniature clouds float through the air like delicate snowflakes.. And when they touch me, I scream. I itch. My nose and eyes protest vehemently! This hasn't stopped me from going outside, however. I'm participating in bike to work week starting on Monday, and wouldn't you know it, it's supposed to rain pretty much the entire time. My rain pants barely fit me. You see, I still haven't been able to shed a single pound of the weight gained in April when I was sick. I'm pretty sure the hormone treatment is to blame. I take 20mg of MPA daily. I don't even think post-menopausal women take that much. I think that dosage is enough to sterilize me. Oh well. The pain is pretty much non-existent. I experience the slight twinge of dull cramping every now and then but basically my entire reproductive system is in a coma right now.
I'm continuing my special diet which is 90% vegan and full of fiber. I take Metamucil every day, a probiotic, and my vitamins. My diet is low in fat, sugar, and carbohydrates. I exercise daily. Yet still, I am at 130 pounds. That may not be much, in fact, it's probably normal for a woman my height but you have to realize I have NEVER WEIGHED THIS MUCH IN MY LIFE. All my clothes fit my size 3, 115-120 pounds self. I don't see my abs anymore. It makes me sad to actually have bodyfat in the 20 percentile range. I probably shouldn't complain, as I am nowhere near the category of "overweight" but I suppose I'm afraid that I might enter that category if I'm not careful. My metabolism has slowed down, and I'm hovering at the same weight despite sweating for hours a week and eating meticulously and refusing anything rich in calories, fat, and sugar. If I were to eat anything I wanted, and was sedentary, who knows what would happen?
The thing is, I just plain don't feel comfortable in my skin right now. I don't want to wear a bathing suit, or shorts, or a miniskirt. I want to hide. I want to continue being tiny me.
You see, years ago, when I was 15 I had an eating disorder severe enough to hospitalize me. I eventually recovered, but I never overcame my psychological obsession with eating and being thin. I had a relapse in 2008 when I developed a different kind of eating disorder known as "orthorexia." I also worked at a gym and would constantly exercise whenever I had the chance. Before my shift, during my lunch break, and after my shift if I could. I became so obsessed that I literally started to lose my mind and attempted suicide. I eventually recovered from that too.. Physically anyways.
I still obsess about my appearance on a day-to-day basis. Once you have an eating disorder, it never leaves you. The temptation to skip meals is always there, despite a love of eating. Sometimes, there's a temptation to binge.. and sometimes I give in.. and feel horrendously ugly afterwards. I haven't really opened up about this issue, but it's important to. It really is. A lot of women have negative views about their bodies because society puts a lot of pressure on us to look a certain way. I have always dreaded the warmer season.. Not only because of the Forbidden Cottonwood Tree but also because of the fact that it's too damn hot to hide in a hoodie and yoga pants. You also have to realize that I lack the ability to tan. I'm always the palest on the beach, and being pale just makes me look less fit. The treatment I'm on also makes my skin super sensitive to the sun, and being an endometriosis sufferer, as well as being fair-skinned, I am a high risk candidate for skin cancer.
Every year I dread this season, and every year I try to lose weight so that I can look good in a pair of shorts. This year is especially hard for me because I am at my heaviest and unable to shed any of the pounds. I'm using every ounce of my energy not to feel sorry for myself. At the same time, I feel very stupid to be feeling fat when most people still view me as being thin. I don't know. It's a weird feeling. It feels a little better to write about it.
Thanks so much for listening!!
Xoxoxox
M
Allergy season is officially here! That's basically May and June.. Two months of being a phlegm factory, sniveling, snotty, nose-blowing foghorn human being. The thing that plagues me the most: The Forbidden Cottonwood Tree. Fluffy miniature clouds float through the air like delicate snowflakes.. And when they touch me, I scream. I itch. My nose and eyes protest vehemently! This hasn't stopped me from going outside, however. I'm participating in bike to work week starting on Monday, and wouldn't you know it, it's supposed to rain pretty much the entire time. My rain pants barely fit me. You see, I still haven't been able to shed a single pound of the weight gained in April when I was sick. I'm pretty sure the hormone treatment is to blame. I take 20mg of MPA daily. I don't even think post-menopausal women take that much. I think that dosage is enough to sterilize me. Oh well. The pain is pretty much non-existent. I experience the slight twinge of dull cramping every now and then but basically my entire reproductive system is in a coma right now.
I'm continuing my special diet which is 90% vegan and full of fiber. I take Metamucil every day, a probiotic, and my vitamins. My diet is low in fat, sugar, and carbohydrates. I exercise daily. Yet still, I am at 130 pounds. That may not be much, in fact, it's probably normal for a woman my height but you have to realize I have NEVER WEIGHED THIS MUCH IN MY LIFE. All my clothes fit my size 3, 115-120 pounds self. I don't see my abs anymore. It makes me sad to actually have bodyfat in the 20 percentile range. I probably shouldn't complain, as I am nowhere near the category of "overweight" but I suppose I'm afraid that I might enter that category if I'm not careful. My metabolism has slowed down, and I'm hovering at the same weight despite sweating for hours a week and eating meticulously and refusing anything rich in calories, fat, and sugar. If I were to eat anything I wanted, and was sedentary, who knows what would happen?
The thing is, I just plain don't feel comfortable in my skin right now. I don't want to wear a bathing suit, or shorts, or a miniskirt. I want to hide. I want to continue being tiny me.
You see, years ago, when I was 15 I had an eating disorder severe enough to hospitalize me. I eventually recovered, but I never overcame my psychological obsession with eating and being thin. I had a relapse in 2008 when I developed a different kind of eating disorder known as "orthorexia." I also worked at a gym and would constantly exercise whenever I had the chance. Before my shift, during my lunch break, and after my shift if I could. I became so obsessed that I literally started to lose my mind and attempted suicide. I eventually recovered from that too.. Physically anyways.
I still obsess about my appearance on a day-to-day basis. Once you have an eating disorder, it never leaves you. The temptation to skip meals is always there, despite a love of eating. Sometimes, there's a temptation to binge.. and sometimes I give in.. and feel horrendously ugly afterwards. I haven't really opened up about this issue, but it's important to. It really is. A lot of women have negative views about their bodies because society puts a lot of pressure on us to look a certain way. I have always dreaded the warmer season.. Not only because of the Forbidden Cottonwood Tree but also because of the fact that it's too damn hot to hide in a hoodie and yoga pants. You also have to realize that I lack the ability to tan. I'm always the palest on the beach, and being pale just makes me look less fit. The treatment I'm on also makes my skin super sensitive to the sun, and being an endometriosis sufferer, as well as being fair-skinned, I am a high risk candidate for skin cancer.
Every year I dread this season, and every year I try to lose weight so that I can look good in a pair of shorts. This year is especially hard for me because I am at my heaviest and unable to shed any of the pounds. I'm using every ounce of my energy not to feel sorry for myself. At the same time, I feel very stupid to be feeling fat when most people still view me as being thin. I don't know. It's a weird feeling. It feels a little better to write about it.
Thanks so much for listening!!
Xoxoxox
M
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Old News, Good News
Hi there, readers!
It's been a long time since I posted. Since Blogger re-vamped the website, I can no longer update via my Blackberry.. It's just not mobile friendly! So, I had to break down and get the internet and blog on a computer like the rest of the normal, techno-savvy population! Haha! So, I haven't blogged for two months but here I am.
It appears that my endometriosis is spreading, so as a result, I am on a higher dose of hormones which causes some interesting side-effects. Obviously, I'm not very happy about this because 1. I'm too young to be experiencing stuff that women usually don't get to experience until their 50s or 60s, and 2. The prolonged use of hormones is not good for my bones or breast health.
As you recall, I went through several tests looking for cancer, interstitial cystitis, and ovarian tumours. Everything checked out okay and a majority of my pain was caused by inflammation in my pelvis. That's where the hormones come in. Along with the hormones, I'm on a very strict diet. No dairy whatsoever, no sugar, low gluten, no processed foods. I also gained weight, about ten pounds last month since I was unable to walk. Around the end of March, I started experiencing severe pain on a daily basis. I was unable to function, and was on bed-rest for about 5 weeks. I struggled to get out of bed, and I dragged myself to work and was often only able to work half-days. My abdomen swelled up to the point where my pants barely fit, and I was hospitalized. After I got out of the hospital, I spent a lot of my time laying down, high on narcotic painkillers. I barely remember April, except for the pain. That is still in my mind. I saw so many doctors that I barely remember their names.. or the tests I went through. There was blood-work, x-rays, more urine tests, emergency ultrasounds.. Sheesh!
It wasn't a fun time.
Then, I got in to see my gynecologist. He really is an awesome man. He thinks I might have inflammatory bowel disease, so I'm being referred to yet another doctor.. Just waiting on the phone call. He doubled up my hormone therapy and I started feeling relief within a week. The only downside is that I'm tired a lot now.. and I have a moustache.. Oh and oily skin. Also, for the first time in my life, I'm struggling with my weight. Despite my ultra-squeaky-clean diet and the fact that I am now able to exercise daily, I can't seem to lose this annoying ten pounds I gained. I supposed I'm just going to have to get used to it.
Other than all that, I am truly enjoying and appreciating every single day. I experienced about 5 weeks of needing help.. needing assistance to do everyday things. I will never ever take for granted the ability to walk ever again. In the hospital I needed a wheelchair to get around because each step was just excruciating. Now, I go for walks nearly every day outside through the trails by my apartment. I take photos, I take deep breaths, I inhale the fresh air and I'm grateful that I am AWARE.
Also, just last week I met one of the most profound role models in my life. A cancer survivor, a fighter, and overall amazing person: BIF NAKED! It was absolutely surreal to meet her. I remember being 12 years old, singing along to her music and hoping that one day, I would be able to meet her face to face. 14 years later, I have. I've included a photo of the two of us! She really is a remarkable woman. She's so brave, and funny, and sweet and giving. If it weren't for her, I don't think that I would be the optimistic, positive person I am today. The best part is, she seemed just as excited to meet me as I was to meet her. She really appreciates all her fans, and it's hard to find that quality in a celebrity. Truly one of the best days of my life!
I'm signing off for now, but I will try to keep blogging more regularly!
Thanks for reading,
Xoxoxoxo
M
It's been a long time since I posted. Since Blogger re-vamped the website, I can no longer update via my Blackberry.. It's just not mobile friendly! So, I had to break down and get the internet and blog on a computer like the rest of the normal, techno-savvy population! Haha! So, I haven't blogged for two months but here I am.
It appears that my endometriosis is spreading, so as a result, I am on a higher dose of hormones which causes some interesting side-effects. Obviously, I'm not very happy about this because 1. I'm too young to be experiencing stuff that women usually don't get to experience until their 50s or 60s, and 2. The prolonged use of hormones is not good for my bones or breast health.
As you recall, I went through several tests looking for cancer, interstitial cystitis, and ovarian tumours. Everything checked out okay and a majority of my pain was caused by inflammation in my pelvis. That's where the hormones come in. Along with the hormones, I'm on a very strict diet. No dairy whatsoever, no sugar, low gluten, no processed foods. I also gained weight, about ten pounds last month since I was unable to walk. Around the end of March, I started experiencing severe pain on a daily basis. I was unable to function, and was on bed-rest for about 5 weeks. I struggled to get out of bed, and I dragged myself to work and was often only able to work half-days. My abdomen swelled up to the point where my pants barely fit, and I was hospitalized. After I got out of the hospital, I spent a lot of my time laying down, high on narcotic painkillers. I barely remember April, except for the pain. That is still in my mind. I saw so many doctors that I barely remember their names.. or the tests I went through. There was blood-work, x-rays, more urine tests, emergency ultrasounds.. Sheesh!
It wasn't a fun time.
Then, I got in to see my gynecologist. He really is an awesome man. He thinks I might have inflammatory bowel disease, so I'm being referred to yet another doctor.. Just waiting on the phone call. He doubled up my hormone therapy and I started feeling relief within a week. The only downside is that I'm tired a lot now.. and I have a moustache.. Oh and oily skin. Also, for the first time in my life, I'm struggling with my weight. Despite my ultra-squeaky-clean diet and the fact that I am now able to exercise daily, I can't seem to lose this annoying ten pounds I gained. I supposed I'm just going to have to get used to it.
Other than all that, I am truly enjoying and appreciating every single day. I experienced about 5 weeks of needing help.. needing assistance to do everyday things. I will never ever take for granted the ability to walk ever again. In the hospital I needed a wheelchair to get around because each step was just excruciating. Now, I go for walks nearly every day outside through the trails by my apartment. I take photos, I take deep breaths, I inhale the fresh air and I'm grateful that I am AWARE.
Also, just last week I met one of the most profound role models in my life. A cancer survivor, a fighter, and overall amazing person: BIF NAKED! It was absolutely surreal to meet her. I remember being 12 years old, singing along to her music and hoping that one day, I would be able to meet her face to face. 14 years later, I have. I've included a photo of the two of us! She really is a remarkable woman. She's so brave, and funny, and sweet and giving. If it weren't for her, I don't think that I would be the optimistic, positive person I am today. The best part is, she seemed just as excited to meet me as I was to meet her. She really appreciates all her fans, and it's hard to find that quality in a celebrity. Truly one of the best days of my life!
I'm signing off for now, but I will try to keep blogging more regularly!
Thanks for reading,
Xoxoxoxo
Monday, March 19, 2012
A Closer Look..
I had a short work week (4 days) but it was pretty stressful.
First off, at work there was a new code drop for the program we use and the system slowed down so badly that orders got backed up like crazy. We had people taking them down by hand, and I had my hands full trying to calm down all the franchisees that were calling in about the technical issues.. It was very frustrating. We had issues with the system for three whole hours! However, the IT team did a great job fixing the problem.
Secondly, I took a look at my requisition for the lab.. I have been so tired all week due to a cold that I haven't gone to the lab for my urine test yet. I figured they were just looking for bacteria..
But then I looked closer..
Cytology..
Kidney ultrasound..
Cystoscopy..
I'm being tested for fucking cancer!
I'm quite positive I don't have kidney cancer or stones, but apparently I'm high risk for bladder cancer. Well shit!
I'm sure I'm fine, but the sudden realization of all this was completely overwhelming.
I told a friend of mine, who has a lump in her breast and is having her ultrasound the day I have the scope and she said "Well if we both have cancer, we can be cancer sisters and be bald together!"
I'd rather just be baldy sisters without the potentially life-threatening disease thanks. Losing my hair isn't an issue. Losing my independence, health.. Possibly life.. That is. I'm telling myself that it's much much more likely that I have interstitial cystitis or just endometriosis irritating my bladder. They just need to rule the serious crap out first. It just brings back scary memories from when I was in the hospital two years ago being screened for ovarian cancer. However I was more panicked then because I went to a clinic, and then the next thing I know, I'm in the ER having pelvic exams, bloodwork, urine testing, and an emergency ultrasound.
It's not something I want to get used to.
I'm sure I'm healthy and everything is fine.
But there's always that annoying little paranoid voice in the back of your mind ya know??
First off, at work there was a new code drop for the program we use and the system slowed down so badly that orders got backed up like crazy. We had people taking them down by hand, and I had my hands full trying to calm down all the franchisees that were calling in about the technical issues.. It was very frustrating. We had issues with the system for three whole hours! However, the IT team did a great job fixing the problem.
Secondly, I took a look at my requisition for the lab.. I have been so tired all week due to a cold that I haven't gone to the lab for my urine test yet. I figured they were just looking for bacteria..
But then I looked closer..
Cytology..
Kidney ultrasound..
Cystoscopy..
I'm being tested for fucking cancer!
I'm quite positive I don't have kidney cancer or stones, but apparently I'm high risk for bladder cancer. Well shit!
I'm sure I'm fine, but the sudden realization of all this was completely overwhelming.
I told a friend of mine, who has a lump in her breast and is having her ultrasound the day I have the scope and she said "Well if we both have cancer, we can be cancer sisters and be bald together!"
I'd rather just be baldy sisters without the potentially life-threatening disease thanks. Losing my hair isn't an issue. Losing my independence, health.. Possibly life.. That is. I'm telling myself that it's much much more likely that I have interstitial cystitis or just endometriosis irritating my bladder. They just need to rule the serious crap out first. It just brings back scary memories from when I was in the hospital two years ago being screened for ovarian cancer. However I was more panicked then because I went to a clinic, and then the next thing I know, I'm in the ER having pelvic exams, bloodwork, urine testing, and an emergency ultrasound.
It's not something I want to get used to.
I'm sure I'm healthy and everything is fine.
But there's always that annoying little paranoid voice in the back of your mind ya know??
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Another Thing To Worry About
I figured I would post an update regarding my urologist appointment yesterday.
I wasn't feeling any sort of worry or anything until today, when the pain started.
Before I jump into that, I'll talk about the appointment.
It was very awkward.
First of all, I was the only young woman in the room. Everyone else there were elderly men and some of them had their wives with them. I waited to see the doctor for about an hour, and I filled out some papers.
The doctor asked me a lot of questions, and at the end I was handed some papers.
One has an appointment for a kidney ultrasound on April 10th.
One has an appointment for a cystoscopy on April 17th.
One is a requisition for urine testing, and the last one was a list of foods to avoid with sensitive/painful bladder conditions. Until the tests are done, I won't have any idea what's wrong.
Just recently I've been experiencing kidney pain. Sometimes it's so bad I feel nauseous and I can barely sit or stand.. It comes out of nowhere and it's very alarming. My bladder is also very overactive. Today I've been going every half hour. I'm very tired because I can't sleep well when I have to constantly go to the bathroom. Whatever the problem is, I feel it's getting worse.
I won't lie.. I'm a little scared. I worry I damaged my body with painkillers.. I worry my endometriosis has spread. I worry I have something completely different. I worry that there's nothing wrong and it's all in my head.
I called in sick to work today. I feel incredibly guilty about it because I was feeling better.. And then the pain came out of nowhere. It gets worse after going to the bathroom.. Which means it gets worse every half hour.
I'm going to try and rest now because I'm wiped out.
Thanks for listening.
I wasn't feeling any sort of worry or anything until today, when the pain started.
Before I jump into that, I'll talk about the appointment.
It was very awkward.
First of all, I was the only young woman in the room. Everyone else there were elderly men and some of them had their wives with them. I waited to see the doctor for about an hour, and I filled out some papers.
The doctor asked me a lot of questions, and at the end I was handed some papers.
One has an appointment for a kidney ultrasound on April 10th.
One has an appointment for a cystoscopy on April 17th.
One is a requisition for urine testing, and the last one was a list of foods to avoid with sensitive/painful bladder conditions. Until the tests are done, I won't have any idea what's wrong.
Just recently I've been experiencing kidney pain. Sometimes it's so bad I feel nauseous and I can barely sit or stand.. It comes out of nowhere and it's very alarming. My bladder is also very overactive. Today I've been going every half hour. I'm very tired because I can't sleep well when I have to constantly go to the bathroom. Whatever the problem is, I feel it's getting worse.
I won't lie.. I'm a little scared. I worry I damaged my body with painkillers.. I worry my endometriosis has spread. I worry I have something completely different. I worry that there's nothing wrong and it's all in my head.
I called in sick to work today. I feel incredibly guilty about it because I was feeling better.. And then the pain came out of nowhere. It gets worse after going to the bathroom.. Which means it gets worse every half hour.
I'm going to try and rest now because I'm wiped out.
Thanks for listening.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
A Long Overdue Update
It's about time I updated ye ol' blog!!
I moved on February 15th and I've been so crazy busy that I haven't had time to update this. Not to mention, I don't have internet in my new place so all I have is my Blackberry. To be honest, Rogers Wireless is really crappy for using the internet on. I constantly get communication errors and it loads really slowly, so I'm quite out of the loop when it comes to social networking! Lol!
Anyways... lots new with me. Work is busy, health is.. meh.
I see the urologist tomorrow. The appointment was changed from today to tomorrow. I'm a little bit nervous I suppose.. Probably because I know I'm going to need more tests, more examinations, and a cystoscopy done. I saw a picture of a cystoscope and all I could think was "I DONT WANT THAT IN MY PEEEPEEEEEE!!!" LOL!
Yesterday I had awful pain and nausea. It started off as a sharp pain in my back, on the right side below my rips (approximately where my right kidney is). It eased off to a constant ache, and I was nauseous. Kidney pain, or pain in the back near the kidneys, is very painful.. and very scary. I don't think there was any kidney involvement at all, since I didn't throw up, have a fever, or weird colored pee. Still, it was very unpleasant. I was covering a sick co-worker so I couldn't leave work. I was prepared to leave ONLY if I needed to go to the ER, which, thankfully I didn't. I just took a 10 minute break to cry in the bathroom. I also drank a lot of water.
It's kind of sad but I'm used to having this kind of pain, so I know what to do when it strikes. As for the endo pain, it isn't too bad. The medroxyprogesterone has "quieted" down the disease I think. I still have painful days though sometimes. I've been exercising a lot and eating better. Life is a lot less stressful since I moved out on my own. It's so quiet where I live now, and I'm close to the mall and to work. There's also a gym in the building! I love it. I can lift weights whenever I want (as long as it's not after 10pm at night lol!)
So I'm pretty happy.
Still battling relentless fatigue.. I sleep a lot but I'm trying not to stay up so late. I sleep better that way.
Alright, I better take off. It's my birthday and I should find some cake to eat.. or something.. LOL!
Bye :3
I moved on February 15th and I've been so crazy busy that I haven't had time to update this. Not to mention, I don't have internet in my new place so all I have is my Blackberry. To be honest, Rogers Wireless is really crappy for using the internet on. I constantly get communication errors and it loads really slowly, so I'm quite out of the loop when it comes to social networking! Lol!
Anyways... lots new with me. Work is busy, health is.. meh.
I see the urologist tomorrow. The appointment was changed from today to tomorrow. I'm a little bit nervous I suppose.. Probably because I know I'm going to need more tests, more examinations, and a cystoscopy done. I saw a picture of a cystoscope and all I could think was "I DONT WANT THAT IN MY PEEEPEEEEEE!!!" LOL!
Yesterday I had awful pain and nausea. It started off as a sharp pain in my back, on the right side below my rips (approximately where my right kidney is). It eased off to a constant ache, and I was nauseous. Kidney pain, or pain in the back near the kidneys, is very painful.. and very scary. I don't think there was any kidney involvement at all, since I didn't throw up, have a fever, or weird colored pee. Still, it was very unpleasant. I was covering a sick co-worker so I couldn't leave work. I was prepared to leave ONLY if I needed to go to the ER, which, thankfully I didn't. I just took a 10 minute break to cry in the bathroom. I also drank a lot of water.
It's kind of sad but I'm used to having this kind of pain, so I know what to do when it strikes. As for the endo pain, it isn't too bad. The medroxyprogesterone has "quieted" down the disease I think. I still have painful days though sometimes. I've been exercising a lot and eating better. Life is a lot less stressful since I moved out on my own. It's so quiet where I live now, and I'm close to the mall and to work. There's also a gym in the building! I love it. I can lift weights whenever I want (as long as it's not after 10pm at night lol!)
So I'm pretty happy.
Still battling relentless fatigue.. I sleep a lot but I'm trying not to stay up so late. I sleep better that way.
Alright, I better take off. It's my birthday and I should find some cake to eat.. or something.. LOL!
Bye :3
Thursday, January 19, 2012
New Year, New Update
So I saw my doctor today.
I didn't pull an adhesion or anger any scar tissue. I'm apparently still growing cysts on my right ovary that like to burst. Doc said it's either that or something related to the renal system, but my money is on endo.
I didn't start having bladder issues until October. I'm pretty sure my kidneys are fine. I've had pain in my right ovary for years. I still can't sleep on my right side without some form of discomfort. Blah. It's annoying. I think it would be awesome if my right ovary could just be removed! I only need one. Lol!
Other than the pain, life is being pretty awesome. I may have mentioned once or twice about a special friend I have that love lots and lots. I've been spending more time with this special person, and it turns out he thinks I'm pretty darn special too. I'm excited to see what will happen :3
We're going to spend tomorrow together too.
Also, I'm looking into moving out of my mom's house. I just can't take living with a child anymore.. It's too stressful and frustrating and overloads my heart with different emotions. I'd rather just separate myself from that.
I might check out a place this weekend that's a little closer to work.
I also paid off my credit card, all my bills for the month, and I have money saved. Very exciting stuff!
In other news, work has been busy. Despite the pain, I've been working stat holidays and even did some overtime. It seems whenever things get tough, I just get tougher.. Lol! I make sure I get enough rest so it's all good! Hehe
Until next time!
Cheers,
M
I didn't pull an adhesion or anger any scar tissue. I'm apparently still growing cysts on my right ovary that like to burst. Doc said it's either that or something related to the renal system, but my money is on endo.
I didn't start having bladder issues until October. I'm pretty sure my kidneys are fine. I've had pain in my right ovary for years. I still can't sleep on my right side without some form of discomfort. Blah. It's annoying. I think it would be awesome if my right ovary could just be removed! I only need one. Lol!
Other than the pain, life is being pretty awesome. I may have mentioned once or twice about a special friend I have that love lots and lots. I've been spending more time with this special person, and it turns out he thinks I'm pretty darn special too. I'm excited to see what will happen :3
We're going to spend tomorrow together too.
Also, I'm looking into moving out of my mom's house. I just can't take living with a child anymore.. It's too stressful and frustrating and overloads my heart with different emotions. I'd rather just separate myself from that.
I might check out a place this weekend that's a little closer to work.
I also paid off my credit card, all my bills for the month, and I have money saved. Very exciting stuff!
In other news, work has been busy. Despite the pain, I've been working stat holidays and even did some overtime. It seems whenever things get tough, I just get tougher.. Lol! I make sure I get enough rest so it's all good! Hehe
Until next time!
Cheers,
M
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