A Closer Look..

I had a short work week (4 days) but it was pretty stressful.
First off, at work there was a new code drop for the program we use and the system slowed down so badly that orders got backed up like crazy. We had people taking them down by hand, and I had my hands full trying to calm down all the franchisees that were calling in about the technical issues.. It was very frustrating. We had issues with the system for three whole hours! However, the IT team did a great job fixing the problem.

Secondly, I took a look at my requisition for the lab.. I have been so tired all week due to a cold that I haven't gone to the lab for my urine test yet. I figured they were just looking for bacteria..
But then I looked closer..
Cytology..
Kidney ultrasound..
Cystoscopy..
I'm being tested for fucking cancer!
I'm quite positive I don't have kidney cancer or stones, but apparently I'm high risk for bladder cancer. Well shit!
I'm sure I'm fine, but the sudden realization of all this was completely overwhelming.
I told a friend of mine, who has a lump in her breast and is having her ultrasound the day I have the scope and she said "Well if we both have cancer, we can be cancer sisters and be bald together!"

I'd rather just be baldy sisters without the potentially life-threatening disease thanks. Losing my hair isn't an issue. Losing my independence, health.. Possibly life.. That is. I'm telling myself that it's much much more likely that I have interstitial cystitis or just endometriosis irritating my bladder. They just need to rule the serious crap out first. It just brings back scary memories from when I was in the hospital two years ago being screened for ovarian cancer. However I was more panicked then because I went to a clinic, and then the next thing I know, I'm in the ER having pelvic exams, bloodwork, urine testing, and an emergency ultrasound.

It's not something I want to get used to.

I'm sure I'm healthy and everything is fine.

But there's always that annoying little paranoid voice in the back of your mind ya know??