A Step In The Right Direction

Namaste! I have become a late-night blogger!! Today was interesting..
I ovulated about 3 days ago but had to cease my hormonal treatment/birth control pills (which I wasn't taking for birth control purposes, hence why I call it "hormonal treatment") soooo today I get what every endo patient dreads.
THE PERIOD!! HOLY SHIT! It's a monthly thing. It's inevitable. I hate talking about it cuz I can hear my readers going "eeewww" haha! Well it's a natural thing. Like farting.
Not one of the body's most pleasant functions but hey.. It's nothing we haven't heard of right?? Ok.
Now we have that out of the way.. I swear I blush whenever I say the "P" word! Hahahaha!

I made an appointment with my GP. I call that a "step in the right direction". Catchy title isn't it?!
It's for next Wednesday. We will see what ensues.. I'm a bit apprehensive.

Also around the corner is the big day in celebration of Jesus' birthday! Christmas! Already! Wow! I have to say, this is the first Christmas of my entire adult life that I've been alone.
Last year, I wasn't really "well" but I wasn't sick either. It was during the time my doctor and I thought I had IBS and I drank my Metamucil faithfully everyday and took my Bio-K.
This year, it's really hitting me. I spent all day in bed because of the pain and fatigue. It was probably my first real day of resting I've had in a few months. It was very weird.. I did some cleaning up but other than that I kept physical activity to a minimum. This Christmas I can't help but feel alone and empty.. I don't have someone special to share the holidays with this year. I feel like I've driven people I care about away with my insane mood-swings and my sickness.
I refuse to sit and feel sorry for myself! It crosses my mind, especially in the evenings when I have more time with my thoughts.. But you know what?? I'm lucky that my family is here and I still have good friends who stick by me through thick and thin! I'm so blessed to have these people in my life! (You know who you are my lovies,!!) I'm working on changing my attitude towards life and it helps me through the tough times.. And the lonely times.
I'll be okay!!
Many exciting things will happen in 2011!
I look forward to it!!

Merry Christmas, Seasons Greetings, Happy Holidays, Yuletide Blessings!

Xoxoxo

M.